Tuesday, June 12, 2007

So, how are YOU doing?

Many people have asked me how I like going back to work. I've given many different answers like, "It's okay, but I really miss Caleb." OR "I like it a lot but I'm glad I'm only part-time." OR "I like a little too much. I'm not sure I'll want to quit come this fall when Kyle starts up school again." And then there's the occasional, "Please don't make me go back home just yet. My son is in a very BAD mood and I don't want to be slobbered on all night, cried on, and possibly even peed on." Okay, I've never really said the last one, but believe me, I've THOUGHT about saying it.


The truth is, it really just depends on the day. If he's in a bad mood, I want to get out of the apartment ASAP, but if he's in a good mood, I don't want to leave for work at all.


The only thing consistent is how incredibly messy the apartment is.


I'm not kidding. It's a pit.
Since I've started work, I've had 5 less hours in the day to cook, clean, and play with my son. In the pre-work days, the hours would seem endless before Kyle would get home from school. He'd come home to clean house with a fabulous meal on the table. Well, okay it was never clean clean--maybe a couple toys here and there and a bunch of mail shoved over the to side of the table. And maybe my meals weren't what you call fabulous. I think edible might be a good word instead. But now, it seems as if I have no time for either, good or bad as both might be.

Kyle has thankfully taken care of the evening meal, so I don't have to cook. (I'm quite fond of our new weekly spaghetti night. It's cheap AND it's delicious!)

Still, the whole cleaning and playing with Caleb thing is little harder to balance. If I clean or do laundry as much as I want to, Caleb would get as much attention as a pet fish. However, if I play with Caleb as much as I wanted to, we would have to start buying underwear a couple times a month because it would never get washed. I try and balance the two as much as possible, but I still feel like my house is a mess (because it IS) and Caleb is sick of being shoved on the floor, in the swing, in the exersaucer, or being held one-handedly while I'm busy throwing the laundry from the washing machine to the dryer. I put him in a sling as well, but now that I have a 16 pounder on my hands, my back can only take so much.

*sigh*

If I really think about it--I mean REALLY think about it--I would like to be a stay-at-home mom. I like doing the cooking. Looking at recipes is a favorite pastime of mine. And in a weird little way, I like cleaning and doing the laundry. It gives me a sense of accomplishment because I can visually see how much I did. And doing it while taking care of a baby (who gets proper attention) makes me feel like I've done a lot that day.

Alright, flash forward a couple hours since I wrote all the above (at work during my free minutes) and picture me coming home and walking through the door to a VERY CLEAN APARTMENT!!

He had no idea I was writing about our apartment being messier than kingdom-come, but Kyle up cleaned even though I never asked him or expected him to!! Ahhhh--It's weird how something so simple can lift ten pounds off my shoulders. God bless amazing husbands.

...AND God bless naptime.

One more thing!! I discovered a new website that I can edit my pictures on. It has all kinds of cool things to do with pictures that our editing program doesn't AND it's free! Here's a couple of pictures I worked on.



4 comments:

Anonymous said...

cute pictures (except Kyle's)
scarey!
what a nice surprise to come home to a clean house
denny has been a BIG help for me the last week :)
keep blogging g-ma n

Lori said...

thanx mom--i think its funny because a split second right after you comment, I always wonder who g-man is. but then I realize it's g-ma N. Hahaha!

Heather Lea said...

LOVE them. it's always so nice to catch up with you guys via blog. :) hope you're all having a great week!

Sarah said...

I have a hard time prioritizing my life too, and I am a stay at home mom. I found it harder to pay a lot of attention to any one child once I had two... and with three, who knows how I'm going to do it. I'm still trying to find that perfect balance of spending time with the boys and getting the housework done, esp. since my hubby and I are both perfectionists and get depressed when our house is messy!!! I'd be interested in finding someone who has actually figured out how to juggle all those things, a job, and everything else in life. I just wish there were more hours in the day sometimes!!!

~SARAH~